The Red and the Black

The story unfolds in a double direction:
Two different roads, one to left, one to right;
You stand at a crossroads of ambiguous light
Yet to choose just a path means embracing rejection.

The red string of fate guides your steps to the left,
To a love that the future will consider a bliss;
Still, the other perspective tastes like feelings amiss,
Right ensnares the senses like a night-crawling theft.

Soon you want to surrender to the beautiful lie
Of those magical eyes who can talk to your heart,
You reach out your small hand to accept a fresh start
With the promise of never being taught how to cry.

But the dark keeps imposing and imposing again:
Signs that push you into fateful seclusion
Tell your soul to abandon the love-like illusion
And embrace the outcome of a life more humane.

So you choose the right road, venturing into dust
Towards a bleak future with no love and no end;
You give black a chance - by rejecting the red -
Thus I wonder for how long will your happiness last.

Life after death

Gone with the wind you were,
Lost in another dimension,
Naked, alone and afraid
That the world will never
                     See you again.

Yet I've felt you, longing for breath
In a corner of my room,
Crying, freezing and mumbling
That you shouldn't have succumbed to death,
                     Not just yet.

And I stopped thinking and I listened
To your whispers, to your despair,
The air turned to ice and the time
Turned to stone, throwing up
                   Worries into midair.

Ghosts and illusions gathered and played
With my fearful mind,
Whispering, floating, laughing out loud,
Turning life into a game of dangerous blame,
                   All left behind.
         
So I turned to them and said I'll go
To the land of dreams and nightmares;
Hours dilated, time crumbled down
And I fell deeply, with a big frown,
                  Into meaningless sleep.

And there I saw you, battling with facts,
Trying to keep the balance still,
You were fighting so hard to exist and not die
That I pleaded with God
                 To let go of the past.

Eons rewound, God turned back time
Giving you back to life, again,
You were the same, alive and well,
I was so happy I decided to love you forever,
                 Without farewell.

Death seemed like a memory of a past event,
So far away, so deep, so lost in disguise,
That I didn't pay attention to you
Being hidden away by a transparent veil,
                Without pain or torment.
                 
When I woke up, reality struck
A powerful and deadly blow:
Death had still claimed you, your life long gone:
Gone with the wind you were,
Lost in another dimension.

23.10.2013

Confession

I love
From the depths of my heart
I love
An illusion,
Singing my worries to the rain
And going forward towards "why".

I feel
Like an abandoned shadow in a cave,
I feel
The stillness
Of my broken heart turn into stone
And mesmerising feelings turn to dust.

I breathe
No air, no love, no help, no music,
I breathe
A lie,
Which boiled my soul dry,
Tying him up with a cursed promise.

I live
A dreadful sin, eating my faith,
I live
In fear
That I may crumble into fateless sleep,
Fading away from peace and truth.

I pray
That I may find the road back home,
I pray
For love,

The kind that lasts forever, without end,
And puts a stop to all the pain.